http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/ in between worlds Sun, 25 Nov 2007 05:05:00 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2007. http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/75.html Sat, 24 Nov 2007 22:01:44 GMT I got this while random blog hopping. What is your full name: Cherissa Camaņag Vargas Currently: 25 Gender: Female. duh!Astrological Sign: VirgoBorn in the Year of the: DogIndustry: BPOLocation: Cavite right nowInterests: Music, Books, Arts, People and ThoughtsFavorite Movies: Not much but I'd settle for documentariesFavorite Music: Classical. Or whatever not irritating and overkilledFavorite Books: Celestine Prophecy, Chariots of the Gods, 7 Habits of Highly Effective People3 Songs that have played significant roles in your life: 1) The Way You Looked Tonight2) Sweet Baby3) I Don't... (more) http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=75 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/74.html Thu, 25 Oct 2007 14:20:47 GMT I seriously want a dog. A Labrador Retriever in particular. Maybe one male and one female. The male - I will name Toffee, and the female, I'll call Sheeba. I'll let them have babies and the names for those puppies will vary - depending on my mood. I plan to have them running around our yard. I'll also have two cats, both male. I don't have a name for them yet but I have an idea on how the yard will look like. Of course there will be a pavillion for silent reading or for siestas in the afternoons. Sigh. http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=74 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/73.html Wed, 17 Oct 2007 13:48:51 GMT I brought the laundry to the cleaners this morning and decided to go around the pool of our building. Maybe I can find a small space for my loud thoughts. An old rusty swing was an open invitation. I was hoping I can sit by the water and dip my feet but the swing will do. I sat there and let my thoughts wander and probably I can entertain some distraction. A limping cat came along. Too bad I wasn't bringing any piece of food that I can give it to nibble on. He seemed hungry. I'm not really sure how it happened, but he went up to my lap and allowed me to give him a rub. Shortly after that,... (more) http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=73 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/72.html Tue, 16 Oct 2007 12:57:41 GMT Hello blogworld. After procastinating on blogging for so long, I think I might have gathered my thoughts already. 16 days of being a Vegan is not bad at all. Although, sobrang natatakam talaga ako sa Pizza. I have got to discover where to get soy-cheese here sa Pinas! Waah! Oh well. Anyhow, I recently met up with my Aunt slash God Mother for the heck of showing up. As to my previous entry, I loath meeting up with the rest of my Mom's and Dad's clan. I had this realization why it's so hard to drag my conditioning into meeting them... Because I'm not out. As simple as that. And thanks to... (more) http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=72 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/71.html Sun, 30 Sep 2007 11:07:28 GMT Sigh. Just to jot this down. I loath family reunions. Why? Relatives seem to have this memory of you that they will try to retain. If you show up changed, they will try to change you back or persecute you with questions. And I'm not really sure how many people in this world who enjoys explaining themselves to other people who pretends they care when in reality, they just want attention away from themselves, or they just love controlling other people's lives. I only have so much energy for such. It's such a drag to answer "o.. kamusta ka naman ngayon? OK ka ba sa trabaho mo? Magkano sweldo... (more) http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=71 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/70.html Sat, 01 Sep 2007 06:20:30 GMT Yes I've been pushing things back in my mind so I won't be reactive to things. I must be able to think clearly before I decide what to say. I got promoted. Department Specific Trainer. Somebody who, in the future, will train the next batch who will handle the same job as my batch is doing now. I'm thrilled and glad about what I could learn in the future - anything that will not allow idle-ness to eat me up. I'm trying hard to be reachable still and stay stuck on the ground. This time, I'm part management, part agent. Part of those people who tries to understand both sides and not be... (more) http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=70 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/69.html Mon, 27 Aug 2007 23:06:12 GMT I can't sleep yet. I'm tired but I can't sleep yet. I got home from a four-hour overtime - trying to exhaust my mind off things and I'm not really sure if that's an effective way to kick away the sorrow. I went scrambling online in my friendster account, hoping she didn't erase her account as well. And there she is. Venz. I got a call the other night - she passed away. I somehow still can't contain my sorrow and I hate myself this way. I don't know what to do about the damned thing. I don't even know if I want to know the whole story or If I'd want to go to her wake - Her pictures lie... (more) http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=69 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/68.html Sun, 19 Aug 2007 02:09:35 GMT It was the most anticipated day of the year (for me) and I hated it that I am so bad at birthdates. To admit, I was brought up in a family that celebrations for such is not much of a big deal. So much for my personal life, I'm totally clueless on how to deal with the whole thing. *poorme* Exactly two years ago - we were by the lake, her-drinking most of her frustrations away. I'm nearly passed out because that was after our shift and she's blabbing away on letting go of the past year and stepping into the new one. Anyhow, I have been dating her the whole week, because I'm scrambilng for... (more) http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=68 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/67.html Mon, 06 Aug 2007 02:21:06 GMT I was watching the news this morning and I saw this video featured in the news. Yeah. Those are PINOYS. These are 1,500 plus inmates of CPDRC - Cebu Provincial Detention and Rehabilitation Center - Cebu, Philippines. I wonder who talked them into making a Michael Jackson Thriller Field Demonstration - whoever that is, he must have been a very convincing man. Imagine the power. If only that can be applied here in Manila, the inmates would have had someting else in mind. http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=67 http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/archive/66.html Sun, 05 Aug 2007 22:09:15 GMT One rest day that I actually spent at home. Had a long sleep and it's early morning before sunrise. Last week, I had a certain nausea in remembering everybody else back in college. Why? Probably because I'm turning quarter of a century this month. I went into a texting frenzy checking how everybody else is. So one plans to get married, the another hopes to get married, another is having interviews for jobs abroad, another is in career mode, another is still stuck in the self-made dilemma. And the rest is plain busy. And when was the last time I saw them? I think that was September of last... (more) http://bipolar79trance.blogdrive.com/comments?id=66